fire-trainer

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all i remember are the broken memories the shit that didnt fit right i really do seem to always fuck up the good moments im starting to wonder if its even real anymore did you yell at me on mothers day when i simply asked to check the mail so i could hide the card i made you at school did my father that i dont even know to this day have to pull me out of that pool when i was drowning this world has completely fucked up my mind instead of friends or family all i want and need is that high just to feel good;to feel completely fucked up i couldnt ever be sober i cant stand it all it does is drive me insane having to deal with realit

A love by fire-trainer, literature

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A love

The first time I talked to you I never thought it would turn out like this I didn't think it was possible to have these feelings once again everyone told me to be careful when I'm with you to not get my hopes up I knew you were different from the start the feelings you gave me as you would stare at me How you would look away when I glanced up at you as if you were embaressed or shy yes at times I got paranoid that you were just like the other guys you hurt me,made me cry,..even made me want to slit my wrists once again Even after I told you my past, after everything you didn't treat me di

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1.2.3

He loves me 1.2.3 and your all I see all I want and need for you to be with me He loves me not 4.5.6 your screaming at me asking what the fucks wrong with me asking why I'm still around He loves me 7.8.9 I need to make you mine for you to never let me go your like my whole heart He loves me not 10 our time together has come to an end you were all there was;all I had I fell hard for someone with no soul A game.. and thats all it really was

What am I? by fire-trainer, literature

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What am I?

Love-what does it really mean? when you hear "I love you" what runs through your mind? what do you see when you look into her eyes? do you see me? who I used to be before you said those three little words that have such big meaning I Love You what does it mean to you? look deep into my eyes and tell me without hesitation Do I matter to you? Do you love me? xoxo

The way it was by fire-trainer, literature

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The way it was

You talk about lies,anger and pain as you begin to speak my name you tend to blame the hurting you feel on me as I watch over you you slowly start to fade I remember what you used to be the person I originally fell in love with She changed you I still miss you how it used to be me and you could you ever really love me? be the person i need you to be to care and to love would you hold me without fear? could I ever actually trust you..

already gone by fire-trainer, literature

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already gone

Bitch Whore Slut Fatass whatever you have to say it doesn't hurt me anymore its like I'm immune to eveything you have to say about me It doesn't even phase me yet you still seem to amaze me Its the way you look at me the way you kiss me and hold my hand that makes it seem like you love me makes it seem like you won't ever leave me yet somehow your already gone ...

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I wish..

I wish I knew him who he really was before I fell..fell hard for him I'm so sick and tired of writing about how I'm so in love with you yet I can't seem to stop all these feelings I shared about what you do to me how when I'm with you and you play with my hair all those feelings I get of love and hate pain and suffering jealousy and lust Yet I feel so safe when I'm with you I just can't seem to explain it very well we're so much alike yet so fucking different Its tearing me apart all I want to say is.. I think.. I'm madly in love with you <3

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This love? by fire-trainer, literature

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This love?

Its like everything I touch just turns to dust I do not know how or why Maybe its just this poor broken down heart of mine Cold, lonely, needing to feel someones touch To feed on their love I need it, I want it, I could never have it I want you, I love you, I need you Yet, I can't have you.. I never could All along it was just a fucking game to you These feelings you gave me The thoughts that flooded my mind as I could still feel your touch Like it was but a day ago Thats when reality hit Your all I want, all I need Tell me; could I ever have you? Would you ever be mine? Do you want me? Do you feel what I do.. xxxx This l

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Roses are red violets are blue i never feel better then when im with you oh great another crappy romance song you're like a queerer version of marylin manson this fucking i love you crap this isnt why you got into rap remember you were here to destroy anyone in sight i never knew this would be the outcome of the fight you're soft xavi where's that rage is it locked in a cage? why the fuck did you even summon the butcher when you were just gonna end up looking for a wife to nurture tells you to tone the violence down im back ready to smack you in the mouth you can't get rid of me even thou you want to at times tell the world th

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Writers Block

Though ten thousand words I have in stock, I can't escape this Writer's Block. More words than can be counted on fingers and toes, Yet upon my creativity this threat of blank-page does impose. It seems every thought I thought to think, When written, through the page did sink. Such incidence is rather queer, What is this error? Why is it here? Why can't I think? Why can't I write? This block of mine, has givin me fright. I am however, less afraid, to announce to the world, my debt repaid. My curiousity curbed. My thirst been quenched. Ambitions quelled, and anxiety benched. I have conquered this my block. I have completed anothe

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i love him.... by fire-trainer, literature

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i love him....

the rain starts to fall, but only i can see it i wonder if he would remember me or if he doesnt even know who i am he sayd he loved me but now i think it was a lie when he first told me... my heart jumped and i was so happy i finally had someone that loved me but now its gone i had my chance and i didnt take it he was the only one i could really talk to and now hes gone i can never really hate him because i love him to much they say im to young to love but i dont think thats true because i love him... and i always will i think about him all day and all night i miss him more than anyone could miss anybody we could have be

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Jan 2
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Deviant for 16 years
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Current Residence: my trailor park
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Personal Quote: "when i say i love you i mean it, when you say it i dream it..."

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fire-trainer

Nov 14, 2011

real shit learn it!

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The Girl you just called fat? She is overdosing on diet pills. The Girl you just called ugly? She spends hours putting makeup on hoping people will like her. The Boy you just tripped? He is abused enough at home. See that man with the ugly scars? He fought for our country. That guy you just made fun of for crying? His mother is dying. Put this on your journal for an hour, if you are against bullying. You never know what its like until you walk a mile in their shoes. I've been a victim of being bullied, and trust me, it does crazy things to your life